Year of transition

Year 2007 seems to hold a bleak journey ahead of me. This is largely due to the fact that I ll be leaving KL after living here ever since I graduated from NZ in 2001. It has somewhat became a home to me for the past 6 years with most of my friends are here. From my malaysian kendo friends to my current DUMC friends.

I m taking up a lecturing offer in Kuantan which is hard to resist as it comes with a scholarship to do my Masters. Have been struggling whether to go back to Kuantan — it is not particular my favourite place. My parents moved there from our hometown Penang in 1992, when I was Form 1. I spent 5 years there doing my highschool before leaving for tertiary studies back home in Penang and later to NZ.

Mixed feelings of going back….partly because I never really take Kuantan as my home…dont have many fond memories there. Another part of me is kinda relief because Ben is there and I get to see him everyday. It is tiring to maintain a long-distance relationship.

A huge part of me will miss my church friends and activities. They are like my family here in KL. And it is so hard to leave such a dynamic church where I grew spiritually so much. It is harder to leave another "family" of mine which is my Kendo gang. But I guess this is just like the other stages in my life where I moved on from one place to the other (college, uni, job), this is another stage at this point of my life. However, when I think of my new job in a new field (yes, I have always wanted to teach) feelings of excitement and anticipation come rushing to me. It is the rest of it, which I have fear in. I m not sure how am I going to cope in a chinese congregation church, not sure how to live with my parents again after 10 years living away from home, not sure whether my new-much-lower salary can sustain me comfortably Haha!

But there is one thing I m sure of, I know God will be there before me being my solid Rock no matter where I ll be. Everything may be constantly changing but God is still the ever same, the ever faithful, the same yesterday, today and forevermore.

Here on Your promises I stand, You hold my future in Your hands, My solid Rock, Almighty God, I put my trust in You.

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